new year

I am so relieved to see 2013 go.  The previous year had some high points (Bunbury Music Festival, working at the rec center, meeting twenty one pilots, traveling a lot, becoming best friends with my mom), but it was also filled with a lot of crushing lows and sadness. But a new year brings new promise and a feeling of hope.  With that in mind, I've decided to make some changes for myself:
1. Wear more black and dark lipstick- because life is too short to not look punk rock
2. Finally stop biting my nails.  I'll be 21 this year. It's time.
3. It is okay to have panic attacks.  It is okay to hate yourself sometimes. Realize that these thoughts are all just in your head. You won't actually die or throw up. Not everybody hates you. You have at least 5 people who will always love you no matter how much you fuck up.
4. Take more bubble baths and read more books.
5. Learn ukulele. Impress friends. Form a cover band with Lydia. Become famous
6. Go to more concerts. See twenty one pilots again. Cry when Tyler Joseph plays "Truce".
7. If I don't love it, I won't do it.
That's basically it.  I decided I need to do more stuff for myself.  When I'm in school, I get so caught up in everything and eventually I break down.  This year I'm going to try to do more things that make ME happy.  I've spent 20 years battling myself.  It's time to let things go and start fresh.